Monday, December 25, 2006

Merry Christmas? An unmerry christmas to me was more like it. So I went to town yesterday night. Bored. Every love ones had disappeared to nowhere after the countdown. I can't stay overnight. However the last train was 1.30am. So, sister called and demanded me that I have to walk from cineleisure to bugis if not she couldn't drive me home. Thus, I walked alone. All alone.. On my way there, I got chased by bangalas. Sounds funny eh? They sprayed me, I sprayed back. They sprayed again, I throw the spray can at them, and hit one of them's head. They chased, I ran. Until a traffic light whereby there's police patrolling, then they stopped and turned away. Imagine the police ain't there? People looking but what can they do? Nothing. At that moment I admitted that I was afraid. Tell me who will walk alone there? Can you feel how I felt? It's like you hope that someone's there for you, to help/save you, or even give you a tissue to wipe away your god damn tears. But no, a big NONO. I could not even feel a single soul spympathising me. Just many pair of eyes looking me with a stange look, rather confusing with my emotions. I saw everyone happily celebrating with their friends, even those blackblack skins people were having fun, but not me. Not even a chance for me at all.. Why can people stay overnight but not ME? I feel so upset, I yearned so much that someone would come and talk to me, even a kind stranger I don't mind. I wanted someone just to approach me and asked me what had happened so that I could spill every of my unhappiness out, but once again a no. There's completely no one I could turn to at that point of time. Where were my love ones? They went boat quay to drink. I wanted to venge my anger out but I could find no way to. Don't fucking say that you will be there for me whenever I need you or whatsoever when things were already over whereby you were not even there. Sorry don't mend anything in me, seriously. I'm always there for you people. But what turned out when I needed someone so badly? Especially love ones. Sigh, I jolly well know that nobody is true. Thats all I can say. And yes, this is completely what I felt for christmas eve/christmas. Terrible and unmemorable. Not even a single present from a friend at all. Pathetic huh irisssss? Okay, I done.

pecked * 3:07 AM